Active Surrender

In the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus said: “You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, ‘You shall not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment.’ But I tell you that anyone who is angry with a brother or sister will be subject to judgment.”  and… “You have...

Finding a Sponsor

We believe that for recovery to happen God must do “for us what we could not do for ourselves.” A huge part of how He does this is through the encouragement, fellowship, and help of other people in our lives. When we start looking at what other people’s help looks like, the word sponsorship begins...

Sobriety vs. Abstinence

When working a program of recovery, one word that is spoken all the time is SOBRIETY. “Am I sober?” “How many days sober am I?” “I did _______…Do I need to reset my sobriety?” What do we mean when we use that word? Is sobriety simply the absence of acting out behavior? If so, does...

Gifts of Recovery

When I first came into recovery, my only goal was to figure out a way to stop the behaviors that were destroying my life. I wasn’t interested in a “spiritual awakening” or even in serenity. I just knew I had to quit acting...

Step One

We’re excited to begin to feature regular blog posts from a member of Awaken’s men’s recovery community. Our hope is that his posts will encourage and inspire you to believe recovery is possible, and to pursue it every...

Heaviness and Hope

I’m not going to lie…late Fall and early Winter is a tough time of year for me. Some of it has to do with how overcast the sky is during the winter. Some of it has to do with the time change and getting dark at 5...

Who Cares What I Think About Kanye?

At the time I’m writing this post, everybody is talking about Kanye West. He’s just released his “Jesus is King” record and he’s speaking out about life, faith, God, and people are going nuts. Saturday Night Live is making fun of him, and many Christians are defending him. What is this world we’re living...

So, I just relapsed…

Recovering from an addiction is difficult. One of the most difficult aspects of addiction recovery is the seeming inevitability of slips and relapses. Loss of sobriety does not necessitate losing your hope that lasting change can take place. What if our slips and relapses could provide something for us? We may be powerless to our...

Boundaries with My Husband

Over 10 years ago I learned of my husband’s addiction to porn and sex.  I had no idea this was something he was struggling with.  Obviously, this completely devastated me and left me feeling like everything in my life was completely out of control.  As we started seeing a therapist and I joined a support...

Emotions and the Feeling Wheel

A question I ask (and get asked) a lot is, “How are you feeling?” I remember once when I asked this question to a guy that we will call Zach. After he completed a lengthy Step 4 inventory, I asked, “Zach, how do you feel?” He said, “I feel fine. To be honest, I’ve always...

Recovery: A Spouse’s Experience, part 3 – What Life is Like Now

As this is published (in the Fall of 2018), my husband and I have been in recovery for over a year now. If you had told me then what my life would look like today, I wouldn’t have believed...

Recovery: A Spouse’s Experience, part 2 – The Road to Recovery

The sickening reality of betrayal can feel hopeless. After years of living in fear and anxiety, connected to my husband’s addiction, I became exhausted. I just couldn’t do it...